It has been really difficult accepting that I will have to pursue my dreams on my own. I was waiting for my friends and I to meet one day at some sort of conference or seminar and agree on the premise of our success. We would all contribute ideas and plans of action which would lead us to victory over the mediocrity most of us currently call our lives. Alas this moment has not arisen, I think it’s still a feasible dream but waiting seems to be a little bit more tedious than I thought. I’ve been binging on Ted talks and books detailing discoveries which explain breakthroughs in man’s understanding of human nature and life all of a sudden seems a lot more intense. Knowledge seems to replace the eyes with which you view the world. Achievement for its own sake makes no sense. Relationships need to be meaningful now. Sex is frustrating as its usually borne of running away from real work at this point. I haven’t the energy for silly mind games with people less aware of themselves. I tend to wonder how entertainers became more important than the people they are meant to entertain. But this is a beautiful phase also. There is nothing more comforting than knowing the inherent strength we have to take on the world. Excuses are weak and actions still speak loudest. But it’s really scary. Choosing one path for another seems like a highly risky venture. I thought my whole team would be here with me learning what we need to do and making moves which will ultimately lead us to the entrance of where we want to be. But life calls upon individuals. It’s a bit sad to only have learnt this when I turned 26. But it’s an excellent lesson to learn nonetheless. So alone I will have to steer this vehicle which will lead me to my final destination, alone. I have accepted this concept and the loneliness that it promises, it’s my life after all and the only way we can contribute to others as well as they to us is by spending that time by ourselves and forging our intentions ahead. I have come to believe that by being comfortable with our ‘selves’ we grow to become comfortable with ‘ourselves’. Only then can a difference be made. Only then can we contribute.